First of all I have several people in my life that deserve the thankings and Mother's Day wishing. Happy Mother's Day, first of all, to my mother; who bore me and without which I would not exist. Happy Mother's Day to my sister; who was always there when she could when the bad time came around. She a little gruff but aren't we all? Seldom does anything come from her mouth that isn't silly that isn't correct and thought about. To Jenn, Lonte's wife, for she is my step-motheer, has accepted me into her home and family, bought nice things for me, gave me this chance for success and EVEN gave me a free massage, which was awesome. Without her I would not be here in Alaska. I give her part of may check to cover my expenses, do chores, so on. It's a symbiosis she has allowed me to keep.
Finally, in family matters, My Grandmother; who I only get to see about once a year and am passing up the chance to go to Michigan this year for this job opportunity. Next year I will plan better around the rest of the family. However, I know that right now they she is proud of me having done this job and being productive. My Grandma was there before us all and without which none of this cycle could have even gotten started. The dynamics between all of us are ultimately dependent on her decisions in the past. She is a wonderful woman and I hope she lives another 30 years! If not more. And to her dying day she'll be in her garden doing what she loves or at the donation center helping people.
I love you all very much and I am so happy to have you all in my life. Even if the times are sometimes rocky they all even out at the end of the day. We all love each other and that's what mattters.
And to the fifth person, for whom all of the above general statements still apply, You are my roommate and a true friend of me. Even if you slip sometimes I slip so much more. Though you're not a woman you ARE a mother figure, at least in my home and nobody would deny it. Whether the motherliness is making the place look pretty, nagging kids to get things dopne or booting the chicks out of the nest when it's time to go, you do it while I am away in some far away making war with wild bears and cleaning up lawns and driveways so I can make a living. How sweet of you ^^ You totally get props.
On an afternote:
I am doing well, changing, maturing, becoming less of something I was yesterday and more of something I have vowed to be tomorrow. I am hearing more things I like and gaining the ability to, in short time, shrug off the negativities of the world. There's some hard egocentricity in this world, things that are programmed into us RIGHT from birth or possibly just a bit afterward. Some people are just going to be negative to you in subtle but devastating ways because it gives them a childish sense of glee. A lot of our popular culture is based around selfishness and indulgence. Couple weeks ago I heard a song lyric that sums what our culture teaches our children through the media, "Living In Sin Is The Newest Big Thing." Steer clear of this mentality. It's right on the radio, any popular station you turn to, or at least was at one point but it, as a mindset, is NOT condusve to a healthy, fruitful lifestyle. It will drain you of your money, physical health, spiritual connection, emotional drive and mental potential. Ya, we're talking ALL facets of life here.
Now I'm not saying don't kick back a beer every so often. I'm a flawed individual, I have my own little indulgences. But they are exactly those, "Little" indulgences. Heck, every once in a while I have been known to have a REAL bash, within which something really stupid may or may not happen. Case and point, I recently had a crash in mentality and faith where I was confused and worried for my status in life as well as divinity. This happened right after a moment of indulgence and a lack of forethought based on childish whimsy. After not horribly long I went to the wisest man in my life, my Grandfather, and ased him help. Being a very devout christian our viewpoints are subtly different in many aspects. However, we both believe that to love everyone is god(s) will in truth, more or less.
I thought on what my grandfather has told me and am thinking on it constantly. It is enough to instill within me my faith once more, that much more solid and tangible in my mortal eyes. It is important to not life an unproductive life of indulgence and imbalance but even more important to live a life of love and compassion. If you slip up, remember that if your emotions are true and loving then there is some way to fix the problem. If it is clear that other prties are not willing to reciprocate then you should stay away from them. That barring there is one thing the Gods gave us lips for if nothing else; to press together in silent defiance, only opening to spread love or provide positive affirmations.
And a month or so back I wouldn't have understood that but now I made it. How nice to see.
If it's not your gospel, though, it's mine. That's the way I will live my life. I will be compassionate and lead by example when possible. I'll learn to control when to use those lips the gods gave me and I will meditate perpetually on how to better myself in a way that helps others maintain an environment where they may nurture their own self betterment and happiness. If that takes becoming the president to change the world so kids don't beat each other up to and from school for whimsy, there ya go.
There is a balance that the universe will keep whether we like it or else. The more we try to actively screw with that balance in ourselves and others the more the universe will compensate for that imbalance, most times back through us. Negativity is a LOT harder to burn off than collect.
Simply Put:
You live a life of indulgence knowingly unproductive with the intent to live only for yourself and put anyone whose convenient down to get a personl rise you will die early, unhealthy, dissatisfied and without company to love you when you need it.
You live a life of productivity: Spreading love and compassion, providing for your family and friends as best you can, keep a couple small indulgences but work to improve yourself every time you can, work to avoid your past mistakes and safeguard against new ones influencing everything positively... Well even if you die early and unhealthy you will have friends and loved ones around you who you have known and proven to also be loving individuals who you only benefit from knowing. If all we do is love, there is no room for mistakes to taint the purity of our minds.
The time of the great thinkers is not over, we have simply allowed it to atrophy. If we are to turn the "information age" from the Age of Ignorance to the Age of Enlightenment then we must use the tools of our time for forward thinking. I would rather be wise than intelligent. We have so many resources that we misuse. Wield them properly together with skill and good intent and there is no limit to what the human race can do out of mutual good will.
A Modern Philosopher In-Training,
Dag
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